Saturday, August 13, 2016

12 weeks! First trimester with a back-to-back baby

12 weeks along! We got to see my little wiggle baby on the ultrasound this week. Hands and feet moving everywhere, it was like deja vu! It is hard to believe that this little human is NOT Eleni. It's its own, separate entity. Could be boy, could be girl. So crazy! Now, so far, this pregnancy has been different than the first.

Firstly, I've still been 5 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy goal weight, so I'm starting off a bit more than before. I also noticed the pooch way early. My uterus was like "Oh, we're doing THIS again? Okay, here I am, ready to go" and just fell out. With Eleni, I was insanely sick my first trimester, this time around I have only felt waves here and there. Nothing even noticeable enough to really point out. 

We have been commercial fishing, I've been teaching group exercise classes, and renting out our home as a vacation rental (which I had to clean), so my mind has been everywhere. I have been EXHAUSTED. Random, odd sleeping hours, taking care of a million different tasks, trying to keep up breastfeeding baby... it's been hard.

Breastfeeding supply seems to have gone down, plus Eleni is less patient. There honestly is nothing worse feeling than feeling like you can't take care of your baby. I get so stressed when she doesn't nurse or I don't have milk! I feel like a failure. The key to getting her to nurse at all is to distract her while she's trying, otherwise she pulls off in frustration. I have to play a game with her while she's trying, it's so exhausting! There's no more just putting her on and relaxing. At least she loves to eat solids... she will NOT drink breastmilk or formula from a bottle, only water or juice. But she loves solids. I sneak in breastmilk and formula with her food to make sure she's getting the nutrition she needs. 

I have lacked on MY nutrition, which may explain my insane exhaustion. Cooking camp food always puts me off nutritionally, and I also ran out of Shakeology! I reordered some but their shipping to Alaska is not impressive... So meanwhile I am inconsistently taking prenatal supplements. I really just prefer Shakeology (plus iron for my low iron). It's extra important to take these as I am nursing AND pregnant.

My darling infant is almost 8 months old. I can't believe she's no longer going to be the baby of the family! She's going to be a big sister! I've enjoyed so much having a baby around. I love watching movies with her in bed, taking her shopping, etc. It's hard for me to imagine doing that with TWO little people!

I've been teaching INSANITY Live and keeping up a normal workout routine. I'm planning on doing a round of 21 day fix extreme as well as a round of Les Mills Combat. Still deciding what my whole pregnancy routine will be and what order I would like to do it... when I decide I will post it! I will do a similar postpartum routine with slight adjustments, so stay tuned for that as well :)